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ok [20 Mar 2003|01:07pm]
[ mood | indescribable ]

so yea i haven't updated in a while, and i think that is understandable.
my family is going through alot right now...
i'm back in texas after a short sabiticus in the city. i think that was the smart thing to do...
we have guards staying at our house...
i prayed all last night with my mother. i prayed for my uncle and aunt and cousins who are in the white house right now.
and for the troops over seas...
but mostly i prayed for the iraquians.
nothing else seems to matter right now except for my family, i'm sorry if that seems selfish but i think that all my other problems and shit going on seem miniscule compared to the fact that my uncle just declared war on a country.

i am afraid for my country, and my family.

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le sigh... [28 Feb 2003|11:05pm]
[ mood | pessimistic ]

i give up on men....
i should've known that something i wanted to work out so bad has just seemed to disintergrate before my eyes. i don't even know what happened. i guess i just wasn't worth it to him....
i am sad.
and school is hard.
and i have a zit.

i know i'm shallow. leave me alone.

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[13 Feb 2003|11:23am]
[ mood | crazy ]

happy valentines day to ME.

i bought myself the mercedes ml500 yesterday.
silver with dubs.
bling bling money ain't a thang yo.
and who says girls know nothing about cars.
boo ya'll.
i'm dropping some 10's in the back and it's gonna be sick yo. ;)

i'm really just a simple little girl from texas, i swear.

damn straight. ;)

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[12 Feb 2003|09:10am]
[ mood | in love with angela ]

angela_lindvall is my personal hero.
she's the wind beneath my wings...seriously.
she made me the most kick ass layout..because i'm a dork and don't know how to do pics in the backround..

i love you lindy!!!

everyone should go check it out...it's picks from my hilfiger ad...;)

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insomnia kicked my ass last night. [09 Feb 2003|09:59am]
[ mood | drained ]

so i was up till like 3 o'clock last night watching..whatelse, TLC.
i got close to a Ty fix..if it had been the real thing i would've been a happier little girl.
they had him and amy wynn on a makeover story...he's such a silly little boy, and i miss him dearly.

i wonder if he will be my valentine.
i've never had and actual boy to be with on valentines day...how sad.

maybe this whole day is overrated.
or maybe that's just my excuse (as well as every other single girl) for not having a date.

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[07 Feb 2003|03:36pm]
[ mood | bored ]

I'm in NYC right now...guess what i did last night?
peirced my belly button.
where did little lauren get the balls??
maybe i had them all along.....

i've also been looking at cars...i want something big. an suv...yes i know this is like the most unpatriotic thing i could do..BUT THEY'RE CUTE. so humor me and my vanity.
i think i might go for the mercedes ml500.

ok kids riddle time...just because i'm bored...
what do superman, cabbage patch dolls and moses have in common??
first one to get it right wins a cookie.

::calls up ty_pennington_ to see what he's been up too....and if he stil wants to talk to my ghetto ass::

peace out homies.

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blah [05 Feb 2003|06:45pm]
[ mood | gloomy ]

happy birthday...to me?

yea not really.
just another day...
hey atleast i'm legal now.
i'm going to go read "the prince" by machiavelli. yup that's what my uncle sent me for my birthday. surprised i am not.
blah. what a blah day. and i'm supposed to be happy.

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holy crap my birthdays on wednesday....where did that come from?? [03 Feb 2003|01:36pm]
so yea i've been taking a break to think about things, and things that i should and shouldn't be involved in.
i'm taking a hiadus from modeling....i'm sorting out my priorities. yay for me!

i really missed ty_pennington_...i'm sorry ty i've been not reachable....i'm here now...and if you don't accept my apology i understand..but please know that i want to be with you..and now that i have more free time, i can be with you...but it's up to you.

sorry to all my home girls for not being there either....i just had to figure some things out.
i'm moving out of my house in texas and getting an appartment in new york. i'm going to apply to nyu and hopefully get in and major in international relations. and no it doesn't have anythign to do with my uncle...
i'm actually not really on good terms with him right now...
i don't agree with the actions he's taking. i think he's abusing america's power.
but hey that's just me, right?

i miss ty....
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the irony of my life. [19 Jan 2003|08:54am]
[ mood | contemplative ]

wow i've been absent for quite some time, eh?
i took a long break to do some shoots, and just reassess ( i spelled that wrong) my priorities...
i do not want my professional life to totally interfere with me having a quasi normal personal life.
when i came back from ty_pennington_'s house in la, and then had to jet set to a shoot as soon as i got back i was thinking, "what if i had wanted to stay out there longer?" i couldn't have. because unlike everyother teenager my age, i have a full time very demanding job.
modeling is really not that glamorous. you hardly ever feel like an actual person when your infront of that camera. it's a surreal feeling. because everyone in the room is looking at you, but no one is really seeing you. except for your face value. to be a model is to be a piece of meet supporting some really expensive clothing....
and sometimes realizing that makes you quite depressed...
i've missed some stuff since i've been gone. i'm sorry to angie about her split with her man....it's ok girl. there's more out there and it's good to just be friends sometimes.
and amy jo and her budding woman...i'm so happy for the two of you!!
anyway i should go shower...i think i have some booking today..but i don't think it's an actual shoot...::shrugs::
peace out homies.

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sigh [07 Jan 2003|12:19am]
[ mood | content ]

so i'm back from ty_pennington_'s house in LA. i am very glad i went...very glad. he is a great guy. and apparently he has a surprise for me the next time i go out there...hmm..i wonder when i'll be able to steal away again...
i've actually got a few bookings for shoots for the next few days...so my updates might be a bit sparatic.
random fact about the visit:
the boy is a bachelor and his house is in some dier need of a womans touch. it was something out of "tool time" with tim taylor.
and his wardrobe....gah! he has this one sweater and it's like a pukish green with yellow patches on the elbow...of course he looked hot in it..but that's besides the point. ;)
peace out homies.

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[04 Jan 2003|04:00pm]
[ mood | content ]

hello all.
i'm still here at ty_pennington_'s house.
i've been here since thursday night..and needless to say it's been a most enjoyable experience...;)
ty is a wonderful gentleman and knows how to sweep a lady off her feet.
he's also a good cook, which i find rather odd, but i guess when your a bachelor you have to adapt.
i'm still not quite sure when i'll be getting home...and my mom still thinks i'm at lindy's appartment, even lindy's currently in australia. hehe. i'm so bad. oops?
i'm not one to kiss and tell so that's all the details you guys get!! (unless of course you ask me..)

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[02 Jan 2003|11:40pm]
[ mood | nervous ]

i'm heading out to ty_pennington_'s house now to meet up with him...good lord why am i so nervous?
i never get nervous...i'm usually all cool and collected. jeez.
i saw an episode of trading spaces today. hehe. i'm such a silly little girl.
i went shopping today with my little sister and two cousins.
got the cutest pair of black boots from nine west and then this cute little sun dress from betsy johnson. not sure when i'm gonna wear it...but i'm sure i will.
*checks herself once more in the mirror*
*grabs car keys and leaves for "the mans" house*
wish me luck!!!!

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[02 Jan 2003|06:05pm]
[ mood | calm ]

so i'm still in LA, at my hotel, waiting for ty_pennington_ to get back so we can get together and stuff like that.
apparently there was much stripping done at lindy's little shindig new years eve and i'd like to apologize if anyone saw my "assets"...
i know not what i do...really. i'm just an innocent little girl from texas...really...cough.
i think i'm gonna go and order some room service.
hmm...hagan daas...hmmmm....
tonight should be an interesting night.
i'll post details later.

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most of what i can remember of last night..... [01 Jan 2003|10:43pm]
[ mood | confused ]

so i woke up this morning...and was in a snuggle type pile like at a rave...which a bunch of guys i don't really know...and i was dressed, but didn't have my bra on.

and my bra's still missing.
does ANYONE know where it is???
do i even want to know...
dear lord what have i DONE.

i think i'm still hungover. i have a feeling i was pretty bad last night. i think someone got it on video, which i'm sure will be priceless to see.
ahhhhhh angela_lindvall what did i do last night????????????!!!!

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are you kidding me!!!! [01 Jan 2003|10:28pm]
so i definately have 136 comments from my last entry. thanks to the queens of spam amy_jo_johnson and angela_lindvall oh my lord my emai box was like ridiculously full.
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[01 Jan 2003|01:47pm]
[ mood | confused ]

head hurts.
can't really remember details of last night right now.
need asprin. will update better later.
bye bye.

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[30 Dec 2002|09:30pm]
[ mood | anxious ]

well folks i'm leaving now for dallas so i can take a plane out to LA to spend new years with the lovely angela_lindvall must debotchery will be taking place out there.
i will write when i get back =)
peace out and have a safe new years!!
love ya'll!

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[30 Dec 2002|11:19am]
at first i was intimidated by chloe_wright wanting to lick my ty_pennington_..but she seems like a sweetheart so it's all good now =)
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le sigh [30 Dec 2002|10:55am]
[ mood | awake ]

talked to ty_pennington_ last night. he's a lovely chap. ;)
we discussed me possibly going out and visiting him. i am going to ask my mom about it today. if she declines my request then i might just have to sneak out. hehe. i'm such a bad ass.
i'm flying out to LA tonight to spend new years eve with my gal pals including the queen of all things naugty, angela_lindvall hopefully i will still have my soul when i return :)
hmm..what to wear...

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[29 Dec 2002|10:20pm]
[ mood | amused ]

here's a good one.
john_mayer felt like being a tough guy and dissing me since i fell for his "marrying avril joke" and told me it was a joke...like my father's presidency.
last time i checked my uncle was the president.
hmmm.....good job john. geez some people are ignorant. do the research before you lay the smack down people...cuz it makes you look quite silly when it turns around and kicks you in the ass.
a lesson to be learned by all.

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